As I Lay Dying

Hearts so cold in a world so full, this could be different, this could have been so different.
But oh I suppose, that it’s not all my fault, but when have these hands, that I was given, ever given back?

If I could just slow down, and decide
that for once my life was worth less than a child’s.

Time has judged I have not done so much, no i haven’t loved, but instead been selfish and angry enough to act out on vengeance.
And oh god it seems that I have just been the worst that I have seen, The worst that a person could ever be – and on this my last breath, I have I so little to retrieve.

If I could just slow down, and decide
that for once my life was worth less than a child’s.
If I could turn back time and just be
A better human being, and not me

Oh but it’s coming so close, and I’m so nervous to feel death’s pulse, and taste of sweet kiss, If I could just go, but that would be selfish so maybe I’ll stay…. maybe I’ll stay

But Jesus I wanted to badly to die
But I know if I had it wouldn’t be sacrifice
So I’ll unload this gun that’s in front of my eyes
And I’ll greet the morning with a new view of life

‘Cause Jesus I don’t think I’m ready to die.


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